Wow it's been a while since I've written on the dear old blog!
You know everything's only gotten worse in the past week, maybe it's just nervousness and going to boot camp, but I don't know if I'll be as good as I thought I would be without my ENTIRE family's support. My aunt and I got into this huge fight, and we haven't talked in a week. Unfortunately it's her choice or not if she wants to leave things the way they are. I did try to fix them, but I guess that only made things worse.
But you know now I have even more reason to succeed! I can't come back and live in this house and feel like even more of the outsider I've always felt, but that was denied till now. oh well.
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What's up with guys and guilt trips?
I swear I attract the worst guys,
1. Races constantly, I can't be with a guy who takes that many chances with his life
2. Wants me to take my shirt off for him, and basically take a picture of my boobs
And when I end relationships with these men, or they don't get what they want I get guilt tripped.
Why should I have to worry about what you think now when I just told you I wasn't interested anymore, when I told you NO, get over yourself. the world doesn't revolve around you, or at not my world!
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Things I'll miss in boot camp
1. My mom
2. Singing thing 2 to sleep when she's grouchy
3. My phone
4. My computer
5. My loyal readers:)
6. Knowing what's going to happen tomorrow.
7. Stefanie Lynn Burns:) My best friend.
8. I'm going to miss talking to my sister from another mother every weekend, but I still have letters:)
9.Facebook
10. Music
11. Reading my romance books, and wishing I had some of that in my life.
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I dream of:
I realize that my ambassadorship was a little much, so I've just decided to own a chain of book stores, all across the world. Nana's corner here we come!
I want to own at least 2 acres of land, and build a house with a wrap around porch, and know that my future family will be safe.
I want to travel the world, and go to every country at least once, including those in Africa- yes even the war torn countries
I want to learn at least three different languages, I don't have to be fluent but knowing them would be nice:)
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What do you dream of your future? What would you miss most if you were going to be without these things for TWO MONTHS! Two years even?!?
Oh I forgot, I'll have one more post on monday, before I leave for boot camp but until then I'll be in San Diego. Wish me luck guys! I'm going to need it!
